Bless up my brethren.
I n i once posted a toic on my kundalini awakening. I n i have this thing i wanna share. before my awakening when i smoke Ganja i would stand at a supposed flat surface i would sight n feel it slanting n its real nature but when i didnt smoke i would sight n feel that surface as flat. What the I conclude is that what may seem perfect inna babylon is all illusion and fleshy perception.
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since my Kundalini awakening, i have been going through a rollercosta. Its like i detached from everything and linked with nature a good thing but walking inner babylon, i would feel duppy in people pulling me, a force that if i would stand with one foot it would pull or push I n I. Sometimes it would happen without the person knowing or sometimes some people use it itensionally on me. Walking in the streets always needs so much concetration n meditation. i can feel the struggle to posses my will, forces pulling me in all directions sometimes eventually leading me to forgeting my own errand. Also since then i have been somewhat used as a dump for drug users and people who eat food not ital. i would chill around friends n they would intensionally smoke so much around me n i would feel my body sweating as if it was detoxifying. Is it that having connected to Nature I n I is like a tree that would recycle waste n turn it inna something productive? them use me in their wicked cravings n i have been in solitude for a while...walking out n coming home i would sweat n feel worn out after being around them. sometimes i would feel sn entity come in me n suck my energy. there are some days when i am so fully vybed n they are friends but would look at me as if they fear me n would respect i. i admit i have not been an italist n i drink alcohol n try to strengthen myself in hard conditions as under un-ital influence. althoug all tjis has been happrning when i am fully sobber n i drink because thats the only way i ignore these forces n go about my day... so far i have been trying to walk around without alcohol n i realised what a new creation i have become only that i need to figure out how to shield myself, fight in spirit and up my viberationnzzz
bless
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