These days although I really feel Rasta as my true home, I read a lot about Starseeds, and is it real for there to be angels , and things that help us? Recently I have been very irritable at home but only around my mother. At school I am not irritable but feel like shit because of the things going on in my mind. I do lots of movements with my hands and move around, and I must look crazy to everyone around me. But I dont realize this while im doing it or I do but i keep doing it beacuse I have to because I feel like there are feelings im having which are going to influence other people, and these are negative feelings. Sometimes I say so what ill let it happen but then I dont know what happens and I start doing it again. I dont want to hurt anyone, and when im talking to people its like I cant get close to them or we cant like connect and so then I cant talk to them its like my brain wont function, because im not in the same moment with them i dont know how to explain the feeling, like im blocked..? but there is nothing i can do about this feeling. And I always feel or think that im reading people mind, theyll be talking and ill put a word or some words to say what theyre feeling or thinking of me. I dont know whats going on with me. I also think that someone I used to be friends with is going to try to get me in legal trouble or some kind of trouble, I even get random telepathic messages from him relating to things hes doing to get me in trouble. Please if you can help me thank you so muchh!!!!
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