Blessed Love bredrens and sistrens,
IandI am new to the forum, and would like to introduce myself.
I am a black sister living in the French W.I (thus speaking French, so I apologize from now for all the mistakes to come). I have been trodding my way to RastafarI for quite a long time during the past 25 yrs. I have no children, but a bright Kingman who I call Lionhearted-man (as he doesn't abide to the Rastafari Livity but shares most of the views without even knowing it).
After several months of searches I felt blessed to find your forum. I must say that I deeply apprecilove the way you bredrens and sistrens hearticaly dash fire here. For having read a few threads posted before, without necessarily agree with y'all, I know I will find here what I am looking for.
Here is the subject I wanted to reason on.
At the begininng of my trod,I neva thought of being a rasta, I was just being curious. I found it stupid to worship H.I.M Haile Selassie I as King. I was just interested in knowing a lifestyle that included respect for Nature (which I always felt crucial) and rebellion (well...I was 15 then !). While getting to know the livity better, while living it above all, while learning about the life and words of HIS MAJESTY...I came to realize that HIM is not only JAH but the Light Of This World...InI ravaged world.
The livity came into my life slowly but surely, step by step, stone by stone, so that I was soon surrounded by people tagging me as "rasta" while I was strongly denying. "Why don't you eat meat then? Why do you wrap your head like this? Why do you always contest the mainstream? Why you're so keen on Nature ? and so on (people are funny!). I stopped eating meat as a covenant between the Almighty and I, promising him this would be the permanent testimony of my will to walk on his path whatever it may be. I wrapped my hair cuz I luv the African Style it immediatly gives me in a country where everyone wants to be whiter than the white man himself...As for Nature and rebellion, these has always been part of me !
All these things I call them now My Precious Fya, seeing them as the result of a constant fire that has always been burning within me from birth, unveiling certain things throughout I life and causing I to walk on this path today...
This Precious fire has been burning for 10 years now, without me being able to call myself a RASTAFARI today. There are no rasta in InI family and I have been raised in the supremacy of family ties. Today, my whole heart and soul are in RASTAFARI (as they always belonged). I started setting my life into it, still I'm playing an awful and shameful game in JAH sight as I'm keeping one step in Babylone not to lose I familly... FEAR, FEAR is watering I Precious Fire without InI even manifest proper resistance.
DOES ONE HAVE TO CHOOSE BETWEEN FAMILLY AND RASTAFARI LIVITY TO LIVE IT PROPERLY ?
One Ras told me someday I would have to leave my familly to follow the Almighty, does it really have to be ?
I would be thankful that you share your lights and experience. Please dash some fire to help I burn the wrong and see the Right only ...
"Sélassie I béni"
(that's "Blessed be Selassie I", in our creole).