Hail I lions and lionesses, give thanx and ises to the most high Jah RasTafari for another day.
I give thanx for each step i n i trodd and for getting through each day. But, sometimes the days are more difficult to trodd then others(as i n i know). I week has been rough, it has made I spirit cry.
But, I still give thanx because it makes i stronger.
I do not have ras to reason with where I live( I know 2, but don't see them much). The road gets rough, but I itinue to trodd through it. Even if I lioness paws feel weak, tired and lonely, I will itinue to trodd til I reach Mt. Zion.
I feel that eventhough I do not have ras frens where I live, I have ras frens online. I feel I n I are one family. I n I can travel from near to far, and when I n I hail each other, I n I should be one family. I n I are all children, so even if i n i don't know each others names, i n i still are not strangers. So, when i n i meet, lets hail each other with a greeting and if i n i should reason, lets reason openly. I n I as rasta children should be able to say anything to each other respectively without judgement or disrespect. Rastafari is I family!
So today, I come to In I to just hear i spirit crying, cause this week has been rough. Its sad when I n I have to face babylon all day and then come home to babylon. See, when I n I are out in babylon world, and i n i come home to i n i lion and lioness dens, that is i n i temple. I n I yard is where positive energy lives along with positive vibration and irie sounds. But, when u have to come home to a cloud of tension and silence around. Where u have no attention from a few words of comfort or a hug to release a hard day of trodding, it gets lonely.
I man has been fighting i since i got strong. The other day i n i got into a disagreement and he said to me, " you care more bout ur religion then ur own family!" Those words cut into my spirit and hurt me. He does not see i spirit or the gift jah bless i with. He does not ovastand i love for jah or jah children. I went to ja. in september and bought clothes for some yute and i gave i laptop to a bredren who lost his business to fire. NOw, i came home and lied, because i know he would fight me. The first thing he yelled to me when i reached the car from ja. was where was i laptop. I lied because i didn't want to fuss. He said he didn't care, but i heard bout it til this day. He said i saved 4 years for that laptop. But, see it was just a piece of material item. I did the right thing, that is just me. IF i have it, its urs. I feel I was not wrong. He just doesn't see me. Of course I have faults, but i will live up to them. But none that should cause this treatment.
Since I got strong I started wrapping I head, and the fight was on. I job talked bout i behind i back, but i just laff and keep walking. But, tonite i got a call from i boss asking to meet in the next lights. She explained how i annual evaluation is due and she wants to go over some things and some things that i can change before eval. I was upset cause to I that doesn't look good. I care bout I guys and I advocate for them( I work with ppl. with disabilities). If she says anything bout I wrap, let I stop I shouldn't assume. WEll, I wasn't gonna send this, but i feel i n i should be there for each other. So, I give thanx for listening to I words, cause I spirit is crying today.
But, I am not giving up so don't take it like this, I just am feeling the heavy load. I refuse to bow down tho and I will stand tall..
Give thanx for listening, i truly apprecilove it.
your humble sister and servant,