Hail up brother King Isaac
First thing I notice reading your questions is that it seems you are looking outside yourself for confirmation of your worth. Focus on self love and self fulfillment to redirect the way you find value in yourself. There are some self love affirmations on youtube that I found really helpful in rediscovering my internal voice saying yes, I am good enough. It's not so much about pride, but about firm grounding in our unshakable innate value.
Everyone has a different viewpoint on the identity of the Most High. Some people see Haile Selassie I as God, separate from the self, one to be worshipped just like Christians see Jesus. Others see the unity in all of existence, that we all stem from one source, and take Haile Selassie I and Empress Menen I as the examples of our potential to embody that source, that they fulfilled their godship on earth by living righteously and uprightly with a clean heart and taking responsibility for the wellbeing of their human family, which we all can attain, and that they are not separate from us. In this sense there is no voice to hear but our own voice. It's a matter of cleaning the mind and deprogramming from the propaganda we've been fed to hear the true message. Just like the things I said about finding self worth from within, we can also find intuition and guidance from our own self which is eternally connected to the source of our consciousness. It doesn't mean you have to hear a man's voice in your head, other than your own internal dialogue. I mean definitely if you're trying to hear the voice of Haile Selassie I speaking to you, it would be in a very thick accent, because that is how his earthly voice sounds in English. But where did Haile Selassie's ideas come from? The source of consciousness that he is able to draw wisdom and inspiration from, that source is accessible to us all. We just have to tune our minds to the high vibration that lifts our consciousness above the mundane and into the divine eternal.
I hope that answered your questions in a helpful way!
Guidance and Love
Sis Ama, JAH CHILD