Greetings and one royal blessed love be unto the I
I'm sure the I know how parents,either one or both,can cause obstacles for ones seeking the trod and further Ivelop oneselves in Rastafari and thus in life. From Iman experience and current situation I mother is a obstacle to I in this time,her behaviours don't alow I to live up how I want to live up.I can't wake up and give thanks without a fight,I can't express any deep element of Rastafari without being mocked, I can't read certain books and materials without an interrogation,she's extremely messy and I feel very uncomfortable at home,sometimes I can't eat proper food because she can't keep the kitchen clean,I can't step into my room without having to step over something,I am nonetheless respectful to her, I have tried everything to make her see sense and change her ways but nothing works,ive spoken to her politely,aggressively,wrote a letter,asked relatives to speak to her,moved in with other people(but this is always very temporary like a week at Max),I wouldn't say I hate her or anything like that but she is ever increasingly getting on my nerves and I can't take it,I don't even feel like speaking to her,she's living dead in many ways, rasta must operate amongst life but I'm stuck here,I could say many more things about how much of hindrance she is but slandering is not really serving any good,right now I just try and stay out of the house and away from her but yh I don't want to keep running away from the problem,action is needed but to be honest I can't see anything I can really do to solve this problem.
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