I dont usually bring personal situations to the forum, prefer it iniversal, but, here's I situation, if any can relate.
I am sole provider to my son. The father has been around here and there and things are now amicable after years apart. I find it easier now to deal with the father without any resentment, but lately he has been attempting to cross bridges long time burned. He is the father of my son and we spent some years together, but our paths crossed more than became one. His own father is vegan hebrew Isrealite but he identifies more with hiphop culture. Not knocking him, but for me, its not about materialism, I am on a spiritual path - one that provides for my sons needs as well as mine. You could say that our differences compliment each other but I see it that we are moving in opposite directions so we are better off parenting apart. Its easier said than done persuading someone to see life from a different perspective. Is it lazy to want to bind to someone walking the same path? Can people genuinely change or will they fight you for your difference? He is mixed race and physically beautiful, but this, in this babylon culture that prizes the physical, has made him vain and materialistic, with weak connection to spirit.
Its like my old self is rising up to face my current self, I am still distracted with the physical, but not moved. Spiritual wealth is so much more valuable than material (including the body) - I know this to be true and I am reminding Iself. I dont need to learn this one again. I know men will use the word love without knowing it themselves, its a way to affection, women need love to feel safe, but real love? much deeper. Even though I may be turning down being a 'family', I have to be true to Iself.
Give thanks for the test.