GARVEYS AFRICA ,
They have diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder
They said I was delusional and that I have disorganized thinking
The medicine that Im on is Invega Sustenna (Shot) and Seroquel (Pill)
and an anxiety medicine for anxiety and Neurontin for sleep , anxiety , and to calm me down because sometimes I get panicky and have panic attacks ,
Ive tried to wean off of the medication but the the doctor (who is not really a doctor she is a nurse practitioner) said that it was not recommended , The only reason I got on the shot is because I was tricked by family and by the nurse practitioner to get on the shot in the first place, ... and then to be told that I had to take it for the rest of my life . I was court ordered in June 2011 because I was drugged down at a psychiatric hospital ( and drugged at home by family members , before I was even sent to that fuckery place ) and I wouldnít go down without a fight because I knew that they were wrong for even drugging me for no reason and hitting me and punching me and having me get raped by some crazy man ... the reason I kno I was drugged is because they gave me pills and a cup of water late at night when all the other patients were asleep and I knowing dat I didnt need to take the medicine they gave me because I knew there wasnt anything wrong with me , drank the water instead and kept the pills in my hand , I started to feel weird and then eventually I felt like I was about to die and pass out and there was no one to help me , I started trying to get out of the building but there was no where to run so two men came and took off all of my clothes and put me on the hospital uniform while I was fighting to get them off of me (Thatís when I knew I something bad was going to happen) and so then after I put up a fight and burned them with words becuz they were in the wrong for even doing me like that in the first place , they took me to a room and put me in restraints on a bed and had me weak and I somehow knew that I was going to pass out ( Thatís how I know they drugged me ) , the safety patrol officers , the workers , and even the nurse watched and laughed at me as I was about to pass out and have a rude awakening that I did not deserve ( I was Raped and almost Killed ). I could tell you more about this specific incident but then Babylon would try really persecute me , but Now that Im out here able to walk talk and move freely Babylon has still messed my mind up because they donít want this story to get out so they drugged me and tried to make it seem like Im crazy and donít know what Im talking about . Now its itís a matter of getting my mind back on track before dey try any reason to do what they did to me again and have my mind gone forreal .
Back in November of 2011 I tried to commit suicide on thanksgiving because I couldnít handle the stress mentally nor physically and I thought the whole city was out to get me and I thought that I was going to die becuz family members drugged me too, previously before I tried this suicide attempt , they held me in the house as if I was a hostage and gave me something that had me feeling crazy and out of reality . They kept telling me that I should go to the hospital but I said no . they wouldnít let me out of the house for 3 days . I became so paranoid that I thought I was going to jail and that I was going to die in there , I didnít have these thoughts until my two of my family members drugged meÖ still to this day they will deny this and try to threaten me with ď You need to go back to the hospital ď when I ask them why they drugged meÖ. but How can a person lie about something so serious ? and so I bit a safety patrol officerís hand (who was transporting me to another location at the hospital On Thanksgiving Day 2011 ) becuz I was so paranoid and so out of my mind and I thought that there were going to be people jumping out to kill me and becuz of my previous experience with the psychiatric hospital I had earlier that yearÖ ( Yes I was that out of it and had never done that before ďharmed anyone ď ) . All of this happened becuz of members of my family drugged me to have me weak mentally and physically , Ö and so thatís when I was put in a position to be on a shot or take pills , I was so paranoid that they were poisoning my pills that I didnít take them ... and so then I was manipulated to take the shot becuz I didnt want to go to jail .
I am going to remain anonymous but I just wanted to give some insight on what I have been thru
I just keep wondering what have I done for them to keep coming after me with bullshit .
I havenít tried CBT because I donít have the insurance for it but would love to try that .
Everytime I smoke the herb I remember what they did to me whether it be what happened in the hospital or with some of my family members but I also get very panicky and feel like I donít have nobody to back me up on what I went thru in 2011 its very hard me